It isn’t because I didn’t want to share my mornings with you … I needed a few ME MORNINGS the last couple of days.
I wasn’t trying to be selfish, I was seeking. I was intentional and I needing HIM TIME without influences of having to make sense. Sounds a bit silly huh? But truth is, sometimes I just need to speak with Him on my own and indulge fully in the relationship we share. I was building on the friendship, giving Him my full attention.
There was a discovery on Thursday I realized or He shared is more appropriate. Sometimes when I begin my morning, pulling Him closer and wanting to share Him with you all… it is like going on a group outing. I feel a need to bring us all together so we have a great trip and a take a way that makes us smile and want more.
On Thursday, I started my morning much earlier with the intention of writing later. And then I didn’t. I found I was, needing to just BE with Him. Not that I didn’t want to share with you – Ohhh I over flow with wanting to share with you!! But on my way to serving Him, with my desire to expand and share with you, I noticed I sometimes get side tracked. I hear Him speaking, I over think or speak over Him and well, I find myself sideways later in the day. UGG!
On Thursday I felt His presents saying just BE with me. Do not worry about what you will share, do not over think and do not journey off on your own. Don't get side tracked today, just BE WITH ME. To be honest, it wasn’t easy. I wanted to share. I wanted to tell you, I love you and I want to spend time with you. But He was right. WE needed time. And this morning, I found myself needing to not rush our time. I needed to simply rest in Him. I needed to realize sometimes it is completely and totally fine to have Jesus all to myself and sometimes He encourages it! He doesn’t just want our time. Phewy on that.
What Jesus truly desires is a relationship with us. Time is simply moments stitched together with Him. To be in relationship with Him is something completely different.
As I spent time with Jesus, He spoke to my heart through a song by Lauren Daigle “TRUST”. *** SIDENOTE: In this very moment, as I’m googling the lyrics to share the song begins on KLOVE, clearly He’s present in my sharing [thank you Jesus!]!!
Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wondering
Never changes what You see
I've tried to win this war I confess
My hands are weary I need Your rest
Mighty Warrior King of the fight
No matter what I face You're by my side
When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust
I will trust in You
Truth is You know what tomorrow brings
There's not a day ahead You have not seen
So in all things be my life and breath
I want what You want Lord and nothing less
You are my strength and comfort
You are my steady hand
You are my firm foundation
The Rock on which I stand
Your ways are always higher
Your plans are always good
There's not a place where I'll go
You've not already stood
The lyric that touches me most is “When You don't move the mountains I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters I wish I could walk through When You don't give the answers as I cry out to you
I will trust in you”
I am needing to trust Him, to completely lie things at His feet and not pick them back up again. It isn't easy for me, but my desire is to be obedient in Him. I pick back up the little things, I pick back up the big things. It isn't lack of trust. It is lack of patience, it is my childlike "now now now" ... it is Him telling me to relax and BE in Him. To know there is not a mountain he is unable to move. There is not a water He couldn't part and there is not a question without an answer. I need to TRUST and BE completely His.
Thank you for sharing this amazing journey of faith with me. Thank you for encouraging and inspiring me through your friendships. I am abundantly blessed and I do not take one moment or event or shared prayer for granted. Blessed indeed!
"Iron sharpens iron, So one man sharpens another."