May I have another?
Just when you think you know where you are going, what you are doing and how the journey will unfold & you are feeling confident that the direction is good. God does a WHAMMY on you. This isn't a bad thing! In my case its been a wonderful and amazing thing!
I was just fine puttering in my house, that I love. Working in my yard, sifting soil and watching things grow. Hangin' out with my kids and enjoying my life as mom. My job was great, I enjoyed what I did and my co-workers were fantastic. My kids and I appreciated our time together and we did some fun simple, not a lot of fan fare kinds of things.
Every once in a while I was found at home alone. I believe it is in that time, the "alone" time when I first came to realize, I'm at a good place. I'm happy. I'm content. I'm blessed.
I was good with ME and where I was.
I had no idea that God could take all that I was so grateful for already and multiply it by like a gazillion! I met the man I would marry - a Christian man, who has the values and integrity that I hope my children will look up to. I was offered a job which I couldn't refuse, with retirement, benefits and co workers (a fantastic Christian circle) that I could not have penciled out on my own to any form of what I received! My son who now attends the College of Idaho received enough scholarships (for which he worked his heart out for & deservingly received!) to pay for his first year of college, Tuition, Books, Room & Meals!! My ex husband going through a difficult time, reached out to me and asked for my prayers. (THAT IS HUGE... and THAT IS GOD!!! He would not have asked me for a piece of gum prior to this) We found a place where our past hurts were healed and where we could talk as friends. * In that situation, it has also blessed my children as they see that when you have differences & hurts in life, YOU CAN HEAL and YOU CAN FORGIVE. My children's father and my husband have become friends ~ another blessing for my children!
My own relationship with my mother is in broken pieces at best, and the relationship she has with my children.. much the same. We were blessed with a Mother in law/Grandma who adores and loves us and wants nothing more than to shine and be apart of our lives. Not that we don't love my mother, we do. But we've learned to do so with guarded hearts and continued prayers.
Our house that I love (because it is our home) was a blessing in that it was large enough for all of us to share upon joining our families. We were able to rent my husband's house and hope to keep that house as an income property for retirement. *blessing! Our hope is to also keep our house so that we may use it as an investment as well.
We have three healthy, smart, amazingly athletic children - who are beautiful and all have hearts who long to be filled with Jesus.
I have a son who radiates inspiration in the way he lives his life, living his life in the full comprehension that all the blessings are from God. As a momma my heart heaps with happy helpings of prayers over me from this ... he's no longer a child, but man.
I have a daughter who sings her little heart out with any song that comes on KLOVE, if she knows the words or not! She'll make them up as she goes if need be - Just to get out all that love for Jesus she has built up inside of her.
I have a husband who I pray with before I go to sleep and pray for before we part each morning. I know that he is prayerful for me, for our family. This is something I so treasure.
Our lives are filled with friends who love us, pray over us and remind us often how wonderful it is to be a part of a 'family' that doesn't require blood lines, but only unconditional love.
Today, as I was reflecting in my "alone time" ... I found myself smiling and wondering WHAT DID I DO to deserve all of the amazing blessings that God has placed upon me and then I stopped and sat in silence. And I was reminded.... I don't need to do anything. I just need to remember to say THANK YOU JESUS FOR THIS BLESSING.... may I have another?