This is my view when I walk down our hallway each day. The sign my daughter chose to place upon her wall as a reminder, to herself. Today, I needed it more than others. That sign, simply placed for all to see ~ brightened my morning. I'm going to soak in the words, as I quietly listen this morning. Lord, I desire eyes to see the best in people. Lord, I desire a heart that truly forgives. Lord, Take the bad from my memory and fill my soul with faith. Thank you Jesus for the reminder, fill my soul with you today so that I might be all you desire me to be. |
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If an angel appeared and said to you "Get Up, Let's Go!" What would your response be? I've been thinking about this. If an angel came to me and said "get up let's go" would I stand up and just move, ready to follow. Would I pause and say "wait a minute, where are we going?" Would I say "What's happening, who are you?" Would I ask "What's in it for me?" Would I look around and think "Eh, it's an option" and go for it. I'm someone who likes to have a well thought out plan. I like to be organized and know what the direction is I'm heading. I'm also a person who when we get lost often says "It's no big deal, maybe we'll find something we didn't know was here". I have been pondering a few things. Things God's placed on my heart. I am working to be obedient in not knowing what my outcome may be in this season. God has told me in a quiet whisper, go. Go to it, I'll see you through it. You don't need details, follow my instructions, go. He's whispering, stop overthinking. Stop doubting, in your doubt, you doubt Me. He is reminding me Faith is the substance of things hoped for and evidence of things not seen. In this season, I've confided I'm all kinds of wompy and out of sorts. One thing which is abundantly clear to me, God is doing something in this. God has opened a door and asked me to walk through. He has whispered, let's focus on more important things, things which will turn your focus from what is causing you to be wompy. Yes, God says wompy! He has shared He will bring me to where He is taking me. And He has shared this season, it needed to happen for me to trust where I'm going. God reminds me, I pray for such things and in this season, He is revealing He knows I doubt myself. I doubt the ability to see this come to pass. God reminds me, it will take faith to believe Him for it. He reminds me, I've seen Him move mountains before. He reminds me He will move mountains in this. Jesus whispers, "stop leaning on your preference of how this should look and lean into my purpose for this moment, trust Me in it. You have placed labels on my ability. My ability is without limit and needs no label" Jesus whispers in butterflies throughout my day. Yes, crazy I know! God is using small delicate insects to speak to me and tell me, He is near. I have seen butterflies more this season than I've ever seen. I googled the meaning of butterflies and this is what it says "Butterfly is a clear message of soul growth and confirmation that you are on the right path in listening to your intuition. In fact, Butterfly has come into your life to help you hold the sacredness of who you are and your deepest life purpose. It is a time of sweet reflection and mindfulness." Thank you Jesus for being so amazingly patient with me in this season, for opening doors, for bringing people into my life who are not here by accident. Thank you for butterflies who remind me, Your blessings are exceedingly abundantly more than I can imagine and I need to believe in full faith, you are in this and you are doing a good thing. "Now when Herod was about to bring him out, on that very night, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries before the door were guarding the prison. And behold, an angel of the Lord stood next to him, and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him, saying, “Get up quickly.” And the chains fell off his hands. Acts 12:6-7 ESV This morning I wrote a post about needing to step away from opinions being shared by family, friends, and acquaintance. It was long and it was detailed and... then it was lost! I gasped, got frustrated, and then shut the laptop. I paused and thought to myself, perhaps what I was feeling was more babble than blessing and I walked on. I went on with my morning and opinions were shared and my anxiety went sideways and I just wanted to shout STOP. And then I humbly sat myself down and leaned in to understanding. We are all trying to navigate what is going on in our world. Not one of us understands it (if you do, you are the chosen few). Most often when we don't understand something we need to talk about it. We need to invite people in who are like minded and we need validation. At this time, in this season I am personally overwhelmed with anxiety I can not articulate. I want to cry, I want to yell, I want to tell people what I feel and what I don't feel, I want to say "I get it" and I want to say "Sit down and zip it". However, my heart tells me be quiet. Be still. Be content with not sharing. Be compassionate to those who feel they must. And Jesus whispers, it is alright to need to process in silence. Friends, I don't walk away or not engage because my lack of caring. I do so because I need to, for me and for you. I'm finding for me, quiet is my best resource. All of the personal opinions, the lines in the sand, the "Don't they get it", the "How can anyone think...." comments. It is all too much for me. I love you, I appreciate you, but right now, I can't be there with you. I know we are all navigating the best we can, and I hope you are finding what works best for you. For me, in this season, I am simply needing to remove myself and navigate as best I can without all of the worldly noise and influence. I love my circle, and I love the people who share with me. For right now, for me, I simply must pause and not engage as I seek to find my peace in all of this. My son, be attentive to my wisdom; incline your ear to my understanding, that you may keep discretion, and your lips may guard knowledge. Proverbs 5:1-2 ESV I know I'm not the only one feeling out of control.
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