I'm struggling. I want what is best for everyone at work. I want people to have understanding, compassion, appreciation and good leadership. The reality is. My husband and my friends are right. It isn't my responsibility to make others change or uphold a standard for which I feel would make us all better ~ what is my responsibility is to be patient, kind, understanding, supportive, encouraging AND prayerful over how God would use me in this.
I pray daily for Him to soften my heart, to quiet the silent scream every time I get frustrated. I pray that He would give me words which would encourage and open doors to conversation. Truth is, if people aren't open to seeing there is an issue/problem ~ they aren't going to open the door for you to show them.
Sometimes I need reminded (thank you Jesus) that when I'm in the midst of a battle, sometimes...the battle isn't mine to fight. Sometimes, the battle actually has nothing to do with me at all. Sometimes God puts us there and uses us so that He can change the path, direction and so He can WIN! Awww Thank You Jesus!
I am so abundantly beyond words grateful I work with some incredible people. Christian people. People who desire for God to be in the midst of all the "turmoil and issues". I work for the government, and with that comes an entirely different set of rules than the public sector. I never understood this~ but after nearly 4 years I'm getting there! However, SO IS GOD.
There is much frustration but there is much celebration as God shows up daily to meet me at the office. I have scripture on my monitor reminding me HE IS NEAR. I have a rock paper weight "JESUS IS MY ROCK". I have Klove streaming. My coworker has signs of faith on her desk. My management team is a team of Christians. When I go to lunch, the gals I share the break room with ~ Christians. When I close my eyes and am quiet Jesus whispers I AM HERE.
Today I am encouraged in my frustration ~ This battle isn't mine. This battle is Gods. I am simply a piece of the process and in this process I am intentional my "reaction" to poor action isn't disappointing to Him. I pray for the wisdom to know I need not say a word & let Jesus speak, because I know myself far too well and I know the words which flow from my lips will not be pleasing to His ears. I do not choose to do more harm than good, I choose to give the work place and all the political mambo jumbo to Jesus who I know is fully and capable equip to take it on, take it to where it need be and to take me through this time. THANK YOU JESUS!
Today I pray for those of us who love our jobs, love our coworkers and love Jesus. I pray Jesus would be present in the work place, where ever that may be. I pray He show up in a mighty way today and make Himself known, if only to one of us, that is more than enough. I pray He guard out thoughts and make us mindful of our actions and reactions. I pray He have a hand on our shoulder and one over our lips. I pray in the midst of turmoil and frustration He whisper over us "THIS IS MY BATTLE" and I pray we feel the calm that comes from Him.
I pray for wisdom to know when to step up and the humbleness to know when to simply sit down.
Thank you Jesus for not simply being a part of our morning, but completely submerging yourself into our day. Thank you for being a mighty warrior on our behalf and for being the true leader we desire to follow. Bless this day and bless us as we work ~ make yourself present and make our hearts open to receive your words today. BE BLESSED FRIENDS!