When I was a child, there were a number of life events that caused me to close up and want to hide. My outlet was writing. I would get in trouble for writing on EVERYTHING... I just needed a small space, so where upon I could put words. They needed not make sense to anyone but me. And most likely, they didn't make sense to anyone else. For me, that was alright.
There is truth in the banter "write it down and throw it away, it will make you feel better". It does. Well, it isn't always an instant hey I feel good about things, but most often there is a release. ~ sometimes it takes a long time. Sometimes it takes years. But most often after pushing a pen (that's what I did back in the day) there was a feeling of AHHHHHH or UUGGGG depending on the subject matter.
I'm a firm believer in processing your emotions ~ although I am first to admit, I am one who takes a bit longer than others to process. I don't trust my emotions sometimes ~ or my reaction to my emotions. So I take a step back, a deep breath and I think or pray before I react. Realizing it is difficult for those I love, I'm a WORK IN PROGRESS where this is concerned. I'm learning to decompress or jump for joy in the moment and not in a delayed response which may or may not be understood later- after the fact.
So, this blog. It will be a place for thoughts, emotions, reactions, frustrations, celebrations and most certainly for growth! An online journal of sorts ~ a log of blessings and a heaping helping of grati