When all is said and done, and you have come to the end of your journey, what is it that you foresee others will think or say about you? Or do you even think about such things?
It was a long ride home after attending a very inspiring funeral. Time and time again it was noted how kind hearted, God loving and playful my dear friend was. And he was! Very much so all of those things. If given a day, you couldn't have possibly shared how wonderful he was.
And on the long ride home I started to think - yep, usually that is a dangerous venture and I try not to do too much of it. However three hours, heavy heart, crazy husband driver and nothing but road before me....I got to thinking.
What will I leave behind? When all is said and done and I've come to the end of my journey on earth and God has called me home, what will I leave behind? What will people be reminded of? Who will I have touched in this life? Will the words be kind or will they be hushed? When my obituary is read in the paper will there be smiles and "she lived a good life" ?
So as I think about it, I smile. I am very much alive and I have time to make my eulogy be what I would hope. I have time to share my faith which is so deeply seeded in my being that I often feel His presents when least expected and appreciate so much the joy which comes from Him, I have no way of containing it and must share it with others. My hope is in my journey here on earth people will be touched in such a manner they will say she knew the Master, and she loved Him completely.
My hope is to continue loving my children beyond measure, leaving no question in anyone's mind that my heart be filled with love for them. I would hope my children know their mother loved them with all her being and there wasn't anything she would not do for them. I would hope they were reminded I prayed over them daily, and often in a day. I would hope my children knew they were my greatest gifts and even great inspirations. I desire my husband to know, he truly is my soul mate and the love of my life. I would hope people would be reminded of the wonderful gift of love I received one day at church when my husband stopped me and changed my life forever. I would hope when people are reminded of our relationship, they see a love rooted in faith without end for one another.
My hope is my family know I love them, my friends know I adored them. My co workers know I appreciated them. Strangers know I smiled because I truly wished peace and joy for those I'd not even met.
I would like to believe people would find my life worthy of celebration and joy.
Today I'm alive, very much so. My heart is filled with excitement for what lies ahead of me, with my family. With my friends. Today I will journey out into the world with a vision of the end, not because I believe it is any where near, but much like exercising to stay healthy ~ you can not wait until you are so unhealthy you need to make change. I can not wait until the end to leave my legacy. Today I will hold my kids closer, kiss my husband longer, linger for a few extra moments when a friend is chatting and smile at the lady who is stopped at the cross walk. I will praise God for all of the days I've filled and thank Him in advance for those ahead. When my journey comes to an end, I wish for there to be so much love, joy, laughter and life in me that one will smile and say SHE LOVED HER GOD, SHE LOVED HER FAMILY and SHE LIVED A GOOD LIFE!