I've never had the experience of feeling the holy spirit wash over me. My husband has and described in - incredible! He has stated "HE KNEW" when it happened what God was telling him and what he was supposed to do with that message.
I long for such an experience. Maybe I look to hard for it, maybe I focus too much on the "THIS IS HIM" and not enough on the quiet whispers and the nudges such as yesterday that were so evident. God whispered in my heart in the morning and then He continued to whisper throughout the day. I didn't need an overcoming experience to know it as Him. It was Him.
What I do need sometimes is for Him to be more direct with me, like with flashing signs and arrows - no I'm not being funny. I tend to doubt my inner self when I hear Jesus speak to me. I think "Yeah right me?" or "Sure I'm supposed to do that, how's that going to work out?"
Yesterday the message was clear ~yesterday morning as He whispered to me for my sharing with you. Yesterday at church as He whispered a bit louder at church and last night at church when He whispered louder.. the same message, I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU. I believe Him. I do. With all of my heart I believe in His plans for me. What I struggle with is, how will I know when to go, where to go, what that plan is. I know He has been stirring in my heart for a very long time. He's been speaking to my soul. Where I am is not where I am supposed to stay. He wants movement. I want to move closer to Him. Seeing that map is very difficult for me and so I find myself saying "hellllooooo maybe a sign? big, bright, neon with a flashing arrow and some sound effects? And Jesus tells me in a hushed quiet voice "you will know, when I say it is time"
He knows the plans He has for me. He has been preparing me for what He has already prepared for me ~ I simply must trust Him. I also must remember, He may not overcome me with a feeling which is unexplainable which moves me from my core. It may be a slight, quiet and hushed movement that flows from here to there.
Thank you Jesus for knowing the plans you have for us over our lives. For walking before us and opening or closing doors. For allowing us the free will to choose the direction we may go, and for guiding us through you in the direction you desire us to go.
Dear Lord open our hearts to receive your message, your direction and your desires. The desires you have placed in our hearts which are to glorify and serve you. Thank you Jesus for the opportunity to share and to be shared with and thank you Jesus for the quiet moments when you whisper "patience, I am working out a good plan in you" Thank you Jesus for this day and all opportunities which will present themselves to share you with someone. Bless our hearts and desires Lord and make us mindful of your plan for our lives as you knew the plan before we were in our mother's womb. Thank you Jesus!