I wouldn't trade it for all the world travel, fancy clothes & fast cars in the world... In fact I'd give everything I had for my children. Love them beyond measure.
I don't love when I have to BE THE MOM sometimes. Meaning, the one who provides the structure and guidance. UGGG when you have to be the one to "lecture" on driving too fast and not stopping completely at stop signs - when you have to say "You are not going to have the snapchat application because I don't believe its safe" to hear "MOMMMMMM everyone has it and it's not a big deal" or how about the one who says NO to a friend coming over whom you know will disrupt a wonderful day had with family ... uggg
However, there are the beautiful joys as well, like your daughter saying her prayers with you at the end of a long day and wanting you to lie next to her until she falls asleep, holding you tightly and wanting that closeness. Or when your son sides up next to you in church and puts his arm around you, letting you know he is glad to be there and happy yet to be there with you. When you reach for his hand to pray and he holds it like he did when he was a child, now at the age of 19.
My momma heart heaps with happy.
I often question my parenting... I have fallen short, time and time again. And I often am, Am I doing things right? Am I guiding them like I should, am I being the example they should follow, am I loving others as I would have my children love them. Am I protecting them and keeping them safe? Have I instilled the skills needed to make wise and selective choices in life which will take them to places of success, joy and peacefulness in life? Oh my prayer is I am, even when I fall short, I hope I am close enough that they are getting it.
I have no greater joy in life than my children, who I love without measure or end. And I have no greater fear ~ I will somehow fail them.
Each day I pray over them and seek for God to guide them and protect them and for Him to guide me in the way He would seek my taking care of His gift. Today as we enter spring break and we've shared a weekend of high lights and "but mommm" I think how truly blessed I am. Beyond words. Today I will pause and be prayerful over myself as a momma and seek God to speak to me in my doubts and fears of parenting. And I will pray over my children, that they will be safe, protected and know beyond words their momma loves them beyond measure.
For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you Isaiah 41:13
Thank you Jesus for your blessings, may I have another