This week our church is fasting - using the time to intentionally seek God, to seek Him in conversation. To seek Him in prayer. To seek His guidance and direction. To hear His voice. It means a number of things to many people, each with their own hopes, desires, difficulties and needs.
This week truly could be life changing. It sounds so WOW... right? Well, it is. Even if there be just a small change, a small connection, a small blessing, that's a BIG DEAL. How awesome our God is!
I have been intentional of my time with God and have opened my eyes, ears, heart and soul to seeking what it is God is speaking to me about. What it is He is hoping to move in me. I am also seeking His comfort and peace as I face a difficult challenge of confronting something I've avoided my entire life. HE IS SO GOOD.
God has shared with me the past few weeks a few things: first I need to be ready to be overwhelmed and I need to be ready to hold tight to Him. I AM. He was BREAKING THROUGH things in my life and preparing me for changes. Changes in the way I look at myself and the way I look at others. BREAKING THROUGH and reminding me HE IS MY COMFORT and I must trust in Him alone.
God has also shared that I need to LET GO. LET GO of hurts that are in the past. LET GO of jealousy. LET GO of money. LET GO of negative people in my life. I read something yesterday that made it so clear, and I truly believe He was speaking directly to me: "Why do you hold on to things? Why do you not trust me? Do you not think that I will provide for you, more money? more clothing? a roof over your head? people who will walk with you? Why do you not LET GO and know that I love you and I will make sure you have all that you are in need of?" Ohhh my did that hit home. I tend to hold tight, afraid that "what if". What if I let go of that $100 I've got tucked away my grandparents gifted me on my birthday in October, what if I let it go and then I find something I want and I don't have the money? And I am assured... God said He will make sure I have all that I NEED. And what if it is easier to be jealous than to show grace - I have learned, it very much is not. And what about the hurts of my past, what if I LET GO, do I lose anything by allowing God to heal me? Or do I gain so much more.. clearly, God has a far better grace over me, than I allow myself to experience.
So as I'm open, so open to God in my praying this week, I am also intentional on my LISTENING and my LETTING GO. God has been moving in me, allowing me to see HE IS NEAR. He is far greater than we can imagine. His arms so open for us to come to Him. His ears prepared to listen, His hands prepared to heal, His will prepared to move us.
This week I am seeking God's favor in my (our) lives and I am seeking to LET GO and LET GOD.