Ohhh how I needed this reminder today. My heart heavy for friends who have been hurt, friends who are suffering, family who is in the midst of turmoil and distress... heavy is my heart AND THEN, I run. And while I'm running I am reminded of my own trials, my own hurts and my own journey. God has never allowed the ugly or hurtful or painful to "just happen". Through those trials He was there, He was with me, He was comforting and pulling me closer. In some cases, it was later, much later, maybe even years later when the "fruit of the pain" came to be where I could see it. My struggle or pain being used to help someone else, to find connection with another, a vessel for HIM to be revealed. I took a deep breath at the end of the run today and I let it all go. I did. I LET IT GO. I carry worry and I know I am not capable of having worry over others AND faith in God. Today I took a deep breath and He said to me "LET GO, I'VE GOT THEM" and I believe it with all my heart. I believe the heart aches will heal in His time. The painful outcome of "results" will be taken to Him for healing. The confusion and destruction of a relationship will be used to work for HIS PURPOSE. I believe in a God who is much MUCH bigger than I can comprehend and today I LET GO completely and LET GOD as I place the heaviness of my heart for those I love IN HIS EVER CAPABLE LOVING ARMS. Thank you Jesus for reminding me, YOU know because you have walked before us.
"Author" sounds so ... adult! I simply like to write my thoughts, it is free therapy of sorts ~ a coping mechanism maybe even... I have always kept a diary or journal. It began when I was little after I was told "write it down it will make you feel better". As a child I wrote to "vent" the pain. As an adult I write to release the joy.