As I consider my desires and my desire for God to move me and use me this hits home. As I consider things I wonder if my "right time, right place, right order..." is getting in the way of HIS PERFECT STORY. In other words AM I GETTING IN THE WAY? It is a fair question for sure and one I will be intentional on as I continue seeking His will for me. Am I getting in the way or God using me? Of God fulfilling dreams and desires in me?
It reminds me of when we as a young couple were thinking on having a child and planned it all out, we'll wait until we are both secure in our careers, own a house, have a better car, have a house with more room...etc. And then God says SURPRISE you are having a baby! And all of that planning and "needing" to be prepared is nailed to the wall like jello... it doesn't work. God's timing is what it is and all the planning and preparing doesn't have any impact on His timing or His plan.
He hears your concerns and then blesses you with a child. And you realize, you had no idea what you needed anyway! You decide you aren't going to follow that career path because you are now a stay at home mom, your car isn't a mini van, but it works our just fine. Your house, well, ironically you had no idea what was in store and it was years later but God blessed you with a house you had no idea would ever be in your picture. He's good isn't He [all the time!]
As I write this I think about my life and how things have unfolded, through Him and with Him and how I have been blessed abundantly time and time again. Oh it wasn't always without a hitch or hiccup, but always a blessing I wasn't expecting and a move I never would have imagined.
As I consider all of this I think about my "need" for having things in the right order, in the right place, in the right direction and I'm thinking... I need to toss all that up in the air and ask God to let it fall upon Him. I need to let God take control and I simply need to get out of His way~ I know Jesus has a plan, an AMAZING plan for me. I feel Him moving and stirring and awakening things in me. I feel His presents and I seek Him.
Today as I think about "Mom you just want everything perfect" I will will be intentional in moving my stubborn little self right out of the way and allowing my awesome and amazing Lord unfold His perfect story for me.
Today I pray for friends and family who are going through trials and times which seem unfair, unjust and uncertain. I pray over my friends who are wanting to scream and shout a celebration & don't feel they have anyone to share in that joy. I prayer over my friends who are struggling in their jobs with difficult situations or circumstances. I pray over those who are in financial turmoil. I pray for those who have a desire to share a relationship with someone in a healthy good way. I pray for my friends who have unspoken prayer requests. I pray over my friends that Jesus will come upon you today and whisper to you YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH. I pray over each friend reading this and seeking to find more of Him in their lives. I pray over each of you as you bless me daily in sharing this walk of faith.
And I pray that each of us remember to embrace this amazing and awesome time of year, where Jesus is truly present and the gift is sharing Him with the world. I pray over you right now in His holy and beautiful splendor. A'men