I've been thinking about this.
If an angel came to me and said "get up let's go" would I stand up and just move, ready to follow. Would I pause and say "wait a minute, where are we going?" Would I say "What's happening, who are you?" Would I ask "What's in it for me?" Would I look around and think "Eh, it's an option" and go for it.
I'm someone who likes to have a well thought out plan. I like to be organized and know what the direction is I'm heading. I'm also a person who when we get lost often says "It's no big deal, maybe we'll find something we didn't know was here".
I have been pondering a few things. Things God's placed on my heart.
I am working to be obedient in not knowing what my outcome may be in this season. God has told me in a quiet whisper, go.
Go to it, I'll see you through it. You don't need details, follow my instructions, go. He's whispering, stop overthinking. Stop doubting, in your doubt, you doubt Me.
He is reminding me Faith is the substance of things hoped for and evidence of things not seen.
In this season, I've confided I'm all kinds of wompy and out of sorts. One thing which is abundantly clear to me, God is doing something in this. God has opened a door and asked me to walk through.
He has whispered, let's focus on more important things, things which will turn your focus from what is causing you to be wompy. Yes, God says wompy! He has shared He will bring me to where He is taking me. And He has shared this season, it needed to happen for me to trust where I'm going.
God reminds me, I pray for such things and in this season, He is revealing He knows I doubt myself.
I doubt the ability to see this come to pass. God reminds me, it will take faith to believe Him for it. He reminds me, I've seen Him move mountains before. He reminds me He will move mountains in this.
Jesus whispers, "stop leaning on your preference of how this should look and lean into my purpose for this moment, trust Me in it. You have placed labels on my ability. My ability is without limit and needs no label"
Jesus whispers in butterflies throughout my day. Yes, crazy I know! God is using small delicate insects to speak to me and tell me, He is near. I have seen butterflies more this season than I've ever seen. I googled the meaning of butterflies and this is what it says "Butterfly is a clear message of soul growth and confirmation that you are on the right path in listening to your intuition. In fact, Butterfly has come into your life to help you hold the sacredness of who you are and your deepest life purpose. It is a time of sweet reflection and mindfulness."
Thank you Jesus for being so amazingly patient with me in this season, for opening doors, for bringing people into my life who are not here by accident. Thank you for butterflies who remind me, Your blessings are exceedingly abundantly more than I can imagine and I need to believe in full faith, you are in this and you are doing a good thing.
"Now when Herod was about to bring him out, on that very night, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries before the door were guarding the prison. And behold, an angel of the Lord stood next to him, and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him, saying, “Get up quickly.” And the chains fell off his hands. Acts 12:6-7 ESV