But then what happens when I am the one who struggles? When I am "ye of little faith" because I am "Me the big worrier"... Uggggg
Our son is in the midst of finals week. Visiting with him this weekend I could tell he was preoccupied, and didn't have a lot of focus on the conversation. He tried to be polite, but I could tell. Later in the evening, he sent a text apologizing for being distracted and shared that he is a bit stressed out about his finals. I took a deep breath and began to worry about the pressure that my son is putting on himself. He is a very studious fella and I very well know that he is prepared for the tests ahead. I have all of the confidence in him needed for both of us. He will do well, he won't just do well, he'll do very well. He is someone who works very hard and it pays off. And if he got a C ... I would know he worked exceedingly hard to get it! I would have no doubts.
So here I am, a momma with a worried heart over my child. I send him a message "You are prepared! Have confidence in yourself and remember you can choose faith or worry. Choose faith. And your momma is praying for you" and I hit SEND.
Then I stood there and thought...YOU TOO CAN ONLY CHOOSE ONE...... and so I began to pray that God would direct my thoughts and fill my heart with faith. That He would remind me that He is watching over my son and that together THEY'VE GOT THIS ; )
Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
And I was doing alright.
Then I began thinking about his travels home from Western Idaho to Eastern Oregon and the roads, the ice, the snow. His driving, his truck and I stopped. I stopped right there mid worry and I began to pray ... Jesus direct my thoughts and fill my heart with faith. I am a worrier. I worry about everything (as I've shared before). I am also very dependent on my faith, my prayers and my Jesus. I know that He is in control of all situations and I know that His will is awesome and powerful. I know that He will protect my child... and then this thought slips in.. "But what if...." OH Dear Lord, take those thoughts and remove them, fill me with faith and direct my thoughts to You and Your awesome power!
As my son prepares for finals week and is taking a deep breath and being reminded God is there, I too need to take a deep breath and remind myself GOD IS HERE too.
Awesome is our God! FAITH OVER WORRY, FAITH OVER WORRY, FAITH OVER WORRY.